I don’t have a specific agenda today. I just wanted to show up, in part because I was struck this morning–for no particular reason–by my die-hard readers who show up themselves from time to time just in case I’ve written anything, even if I haven’t written in a long time. I guess I shouldn’t be [...]
Archive for the ‘Adopting’ Category
Posted in Adopting, Adoption, Food Glorious Food, Parenting, Planet Sster on November 17, 2008 | 3 Comments »
Advice needed
Posted in Adopting, Adoption on October 22, 2007 | 6 Comments »
If anyone’s still reading–
I’d like to nurse the Snapper as long as he’s interested, but I’d also like to sustain lactation until we adopt our next child (probably 2-3 years from now, and the Snapper turns 1 next month). I’ve googled the heck out of the topic but can’t find out how long after weaning [...]
It’s OK…surprisingly OK.
Posted in Adopting, It's a Mad Mad Mad Mad Mad Mad Mad Mad Marriage, Planet Sster on March 13, 2006 | 5 Comments »
The verdict is in: we are not going to adopt this year. We just can’t do it.
But we’re OK. In fact, I feel better today than I have in months. It’s hard to make that narrative shift, but it’s finally happening. After some hard mourning (which I’m sure will return in waves from time to [...]
Sad Afternoon
Posted in Adopting on March 8, 2006 | 5 Comments »
For the next few weeks I’m working on schoolwork until 2 in the afternoon and taking the rest of the day for maintaining home life. This afternoon I found myself bored and a little under-stimulated. I always have cleaning to do, but it didn’t appeal. We cleaned the house from stem to [...]
Scheduling Grief
Posted in Adopting, Planet Sster on March 4, 2006 | 2 Comments »
A friend of mine with whom I have many experiences in common has talked about having to schedule time to cry or to feel sadness over a loss or painful experience. I know exactly what she’s talking about. The other night I was working through a really excellent book of poetry in preparation [...]
The Change
Posted in Adopting, Adoption on February 22, 2006 | 14 Comments »
Alright. NOW I can write about our decision. I was just waiting to hear back from our social worker. As it turns out, she merely said, “yep, OK” to herself when receiving my email and didn’t see any need to respond. I contacted her by phone and she knows so now you can know.
There are [...]
More Clarity
Posted in Adopting, Adoption, It's a Mad Mad Mad Mad Mad Mad Mad Mad Marriage on February 13, 2006 | 8 Comments »
I had another crash last night and I think I figured something out. On some level I feel like I’m not authorized to feel that I lost a child when in reality that child was never mine. We were merely waiting in the wings to parent him should his mother decide that was [...]
The Dogs are Eating Raw Spelt Spaghetti that Spilled on the Floor, and Heidi is Wearing a Suit-Jacket that Attic Man Dug up from the Goodwill Bag for some Afternoon Fun. So, we’re Pretty OK.
Posted in Adopting, The Hounds on February 12, 2006 | 1 Comment »
I’m not feeling like lying in bed all day now but I’m not out of the woods. This morning we rose semi-late and instead of going to Mass we made our weekly menu and shopping list and headed out to the Co-op. Without even consulting each other, really. When we actually got [...]
More Coherent but no Happier
Posted in Adopting on February 11, 2006 | 3 Comments »
Our friend M. had her baby last night! Her husband sent us pictures and she is gorgeous. I also saw about 1,000 babies this morning while we were out getting breakfast on the Strip. I am happy that people are becoming parents. I expected to feel woogity at seeing babies but [...]
Today is Better
Posted in Adopting on February 10, 2006 | 1 Comment »
I am pleased to report that Day 3 of Grief Fest 2006 finds sster in better shape. I think what helped the most was officially saying goodbye to the child we thought would be Boomer, and passionately and desperately praying for his life with Daisy. It has also helped to acknowledge that what is happening [...]
